Depressed

Well... I have not had a good week. I guess I have just been feeling like everything is my fault... like no one appreciates me. No one notices me. I don't know what is up but that is how I feel. It seems that every problem at home can somehow lead back to me... like I am the one who did it. My brother's outbursts, mom's not sleeping, my dad's bad day. I don't know what I can do to change it. Everyone tells me to have a postive outlook at it and ignore it but I can't... I just don't know what to do anymore.

I am so glad that AIMS is FINALLY over. That means only about a month left of school. I am so happy that I could just yell for joy right now. I hope that the more I think about this maybe it will help my week or something.

Well I would love you hear from you! How have you been?

AIMS... Short Post!

Well, AIMS is almost over! It was actually pretty easy... the part that I am concerned about is Science... it doesn't make ANY sense.

Life is jsut moving slow for now.

Update Anyone?

Things have been so BUSY! Well, we took a trip to Flagstaff and we hauled Kennedy with us.... :). I really had alot of fun. We ate, read, went to a movie, and lots of other things. It was nice just to get away for a bit... but be in Casa Grande. 

On Friday I went to California for the one day to get an update on my back. The good news is that it did not get any worse! I know that I have to start wearing my brace and I am going to really try. :) My new doctor is Mormon which helps me alot... I don't know why, I guess it just feels that we won't judge me. 

Well I am going to have to post pictures from Flagstaff. Nag me about it!

HEY!

Ok... so I have neglected my blog for a long time. I have just had to much going on! We changed wards and I am in 7th... I am going to miss all my first ward friends, I want you back! :) But I am looking forward to making new friends and getting to know new people! 

So this month was my grandpa's funeral. I was really sad to loose him but I know he is in a better place. I like the saying that for every people missing them on this side there is ten people waiting for him on the other. I know that that is true. I am going to miss seeing him but I am glad to know that he is happy and that I am going to get to see him again. 

This week is Spring Break! I am so excited. We are going to go to Flagstaff for a couple of days so I am happy about that. I am just glad that I don't have to go to school... that is the best part. We only have one more quarter let of school and then it is summer! Can you believe it!? I know that I can't but I am so happy! 

I Am...

So this is just a fun little game. I would love to see comments! 

I am... 14! 

I think... that life is amazing! 

I want... a million dollars!

I have... a great family that I love! 

I miss... my grandma! 

I fear... of how I am going to die. 

I hear... very well. 

I crave... T&M Pizza most of the time. 

I cry... sometimes. 

I regret... so many things. 

I search... for answers. 

I wonder... about the mysteries of life. 

I wish... that I will find I great guy. 

I love... family and friends. 

I care... about my life. 

I always... want T&M! 

I worry... about so many things. 

I am not... a loser. 

I forget... what I don't remember. 

I remember... what I want to remember. 

I believe... in Christ. 

I sing... amazing songs. 

I don't always... do what I am told. 

I argue... with William all the time. 

I write... about my feelings. 

I lose... small things. 

I listen... to my heart. 

I can usually be found... on the computer. 

I need... a computer. 

Longest Week EVER!!

I have had SO MUCH TO DO! This week has gone by slow and long. I went to my brothers football game, went to a 5 hour softball tournament, an all day honor band thing, jazz band, and i've been sick. Many of these things were enjoyable but let's just say, I AM GLAD THE WEEK IS OVER! I will talk more about the events later.

No Titled Post

I don't really have a title for this post. I'm just saying GO CARDINALS!  

Cute guys

I have decided to write a list of all the cute celebrity guys(: 

1. David Archuleta

2. Ben Affleck

3. Dane Cook

4. Joe Jonas

5. Emmett Cullen

6. Jacob Black

7. Zac Efron

8. Danny Pino

9. David Cook

.......Going to add more!!.....

It's Over!

This long week is OVER! Can't say I am sorry about that. It's been so long. The highlights of the week are my cousin got out of the hospital and my grandpa went into the hospital. I really hope that my grandpa is going to be ok. We think he is going to be there a long time.

Well, tomorrow is Obama's Inaugeration. I'm really sad about that but I guess I am going to have to support him until he does something stupid (which he will.) I really hope that I am wrong and he does better than what alot of people are expecting. I will be suprised if he does but I can hope.

Tomorrow is school and I am NOT happy about that.

....

I'm very sick. And tired. And worn out.

I have had so much going on the last few days. My application, the spelling bee, two projects for Mr. Weber, and I have been sick. I don't know how much more I can take. I am worn out.

I got 4th place in the spelling bee. That means that I am going to be going to distict. I was really sick the day that that spelling bee went on so I was suprised I got that far. I had a pounding headache and couldn't thing.

Well, I am grateful to have so many friends! I love you guys that thanks for always being there for me.

These last few days...

Have not been the best. I haven't felt good and I haven't really done anything. I just want to stay home all day and watch TV which I know isn't good or me. That's all I have to say. 

Happy New Year!

This year has passed so fast it was like it was barely here. I just barely get use to the fact that it's 2008 not 2007 and now its 2009! It just amazes me how much time can go by in a minute.

This year was pretty decent. So many hard challenges came through to me this year and sometimes I didn't know how I was going to deal with things. But with Friends, Family, and the Lord I always made it through. I really appreciate everyone who even helped me once this year. You make me that much more sane.

I am excited for this coming years. I haven't really een thought about it until now but I am going to write my resoulutions: (that I came up with just now)

-Wear my back brace. I think this is going to be the hardest.
-Read all of the D&C
-Try not to be judgemental
-Understand more about William
-Be a way better friend
-Take care of Leo, my dog

Those are my main goals that I can think of right now. I am so excited to get started!!!


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My Christmas

Maybe I should start off by saying that for Christmas week I spent alot of it in the hospital with my cousin who is 25 and has a brain tumor. He had to have brain surgery only a few days before Christmas and was not able to be home.

Needless to say, this was NOT my favorite Christmas. But I have to say that it was the most spiritual one and that makes it the one that so far in my life is the most treasured. I would like to say what I got:

• camera
• ipod
• 5 books
• 4 movies
• necklaces
• memory card
• clothes
• gift cards
• cd's
• and some other things

I would like to say to everyone that got me something that I really appreciate it. I LOVE LOVE LOVE everything that I recieved. Thanks for being my friends.

C h r i s t m a s < 3

It's the most wonderful time of the yyyyeeeeaaaarrrr! 

I love Christmas. Everything about it! The whole idea of Christmas. Tomorrow is Christmas and it's all that I can think about. It's a time to be grateful. I love giving Christmas presents and getting them. It's a fabulous holiday filled with cheer and holiday spirit. 

Well, this Christmas, I get to spend most of it in a hospital. My cousin who is 25 was found with a brain tumor. We believe now that he is going to be alright. It's been a hard few weeks. He is going to have to live with it for a long time. It makes me remember spending long weeks before Christmas with my Grandma before she passed away. It seems the illness always seems to find me around this time of year. It makes me appreciate life all the much more. 

I am so glad for that Jesus did for us on the cross. I love celebrating his birth. The most amazing person ever to come to this earth was born in a stable, a barn. It puts perspective on how life was even back then. We live in a selfish world and Christmas is a time to put it all behind us and move on from that year. It's a wonderful feeling. 

So I would like to take this time to tell all of you how much I love you. You guys help me in my time of need. I don't know what I would do without my friends and family. I have certain friends that can help me with anything. I know that I always have someone to turn you. I will love you guys forever even if we grow apart. So please, have a great Christmas! 

Blocked Blog No Longer!

My blog is no longer blocked. I decided that I was tired of constantly adding the new emails so I just unblocked it. I hope that you will let people that I know know because some won't know about the change. 

Well, today was the Christmas Party that I was going sing at. Of course I don't think that I did a good job because no one who sings does. But many people said that I did excellent so I guess that I am going to have to trust them for now. (: I enjoyed the experience even if I was too nervous to look at the crowd. Not once did I make any eye contact and as usual I fiddled with my hair. It was a nerve racking experience but I went out of my shell and did something I didn't think I would do! 

Well start singing the twelve days of christmas because the holiday is that close! Can you believe it? I know that it is shocking to me. It just seems like yesterday was Christmas last year! Wow, the time flies. 

So long

It's been so long since my last post! I have been so busy. I have been very sick with what we just found out was tonsilitis or however you spell it. I have had it for about 3 weeks and let me tell you it has NOT been fun! Tomorrow I am going to sing in the 3rd wards christmas party and I am very excited for that but I am nervous about how my voice is going to sound with my sickness. Luckily I am getting better. 

I am so happy that Christmas is around the corner. I love the smell of the season, the lights, the music, and yes, the presents. My family is going to be going to California for the holidays and I am very excited to get to see all of my family up there. We normally spend the christmas season with them. I am though going to miss having leo there but we are going to leave him with a couple in our ward. Hopefully he is a good dog and they will have him again! 

This coming week is also my choir concert. I forgot to post about my recent band concert. It was very successful. I helped out backstage and stayed after school until the concert to help out the teacher. I think it was one of our best. I am sad that the next band concert I am going to have is probably going to be my last one ever for I am not going to continue on in band. It's been a hard decision but I feel that that is what I need to do. I hope that you leave comments! 

This Just In

I saw Twilight! I really thought it was good. There was some parts that just went on and on but overall it was as good as i expected. I recommend everyone seeing it! I really liked the person who played Rosalie, she was perfect!!! Well this is Creepy. I was watching an interview with Rob Pattinson and he doesn't wash his hair for years at a time! He thinks his hear can clean itself. Ok call me crazy but I think that is a little wierd!

I hope you guys liked it too!

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Nothing New Really

Nothing new really has gone on in my life. Yesterday we had a chior preformance in the valley. We had judges grade us. I thought that we did wonderful and I am very proud of what our chior has accomplished. I don't think we could have done any better. I am very glad that Christmas is coming up. We actually started a fire in the fireplace today! When we were coming home from church today it was actually hailing, one hit my head and it really hurt. I think that has to be a historic event for Casa Grande. Well, I guess that is it. Please comment!

Tagged... well not really!

I haven't been on blogs for like FOEVER! So I was just looking around and Sister Menghini had a tag for whoever wanted to do it, and since I am bored I think I will do it!

10 Things I Cannot Live Without

1. Well my first would have to be family. Even though they annoy me SO much I honestly think that I can say that I would be lost without them.

2. The Church. Who isn't going to say this!? It truly is amazing and I know that I could not live the way that I do if it wasn't for the support of my young women leaders and everyone in my church.

3. Friends, they are amazing. I have a special friend for everything! Just ask me what you are(:.

4. My dog. I guess he could go under family but I think he is worth his own number. I just love coming home after having a bad day and knowing that I can go straight to Leo. He is the best dog that you could ask for.

5. Clothes. I am so into clothes. I guess I get it from my mom who was a personal shopper and Nordstrom for many years but I cannot go out if I am not in presentable clothes and matching.

6. Books. I love books. I can read them so fast and no matter how small they are they take youi to another world for a period of time. I will find myself wanting to be the characters in the books.

7. Dancing, it's my passion. Although I haven't been in a class for serveral years I ofter just dance in my mom or just for fun. It's way amazing.

8. My phone. I know that any tipical teenager would say this but it's true, I love my phone. I have to have it with me at all times.

9. California. I could not live without California. Sometimes it's the only place that I ever fell at home, at the beach and with my family. I want to live there when I grow up.

10. Cameras. They are so amazing. You can capture any minutes in your life with the clikc of a button. And now you can just put them on your computer!

People I tag: Sister Golding, Kennedy, Katie, Shanci

Sorry this was so long! I hope that the people that I tagged do this!